I haven't blogged for a while. My issue, as always, is time.
I'd like to be honest here. I have never had a lot of time to spare. All my life I have been told "Natasha would do much better if she didn't rush."
I've always been in a hurry, always felt time poor, always crammed everything in to maximise what I can do in the time I have available. I am extremely social, with friends who (thankfully) are more often asking me to catch up than not. I have many many interests outside of work, such as my improvising comedy passion, my hobby business (kinesiology), music, theatre, shows amongst other "stuff" in general.
My family is currently undergoing a very stressful time. They are a huge priority for me at the moment, including getting around to seeing extended family members I don't get to see very often.
On top of all that, this gal needs to pay the bills, and she does so with a fairly demanding and brain-intensive job.
Not to mention, my health is a further priority right now, and I am about to start a 12 week body transformation challenge and training schedule in preparation for another triathlon, so early morning training sessions and dietary regimes means that I won't have the energy, time or stamina (as well as inclination) to do the sociable thing of late nights, alcohol-based catch ups and external dining experiences like I used to do...
All of this adds up to one thing. Time is a HUGE premium in my life.
Lately, I have felt like I am letting my friends down. I need to be quite clear that I do understand some feel "neglected". But I want to reassure everyone that I love you all (and am neglecting you all equally, if that's any consolation...)
I can't make any promises about things getting easier. Because I have done that before and felt like I have let people down even more when I couldn't keep that promise.
I need to put this out there loudly and strongly.
I am my own Number One priority right now.
It's not that I don't want to catch up with friends or make time for everyone, or that I am not concerned about people feeling left out of my life at the moment. It's just the way things need to be.
Please be aware that it's too easy for me to feel guilty for putting myself first, and it's something I am going to be more guarded against for the time being.
I love youse all.
xxx
I'd like to be honest here. I have never had a lot of time to spare. All my life I have been told "Natasha would do much better if she didn't rush."
I've always been in a hurry, always felt time poor, always crammed everything in to maximise what I can do in the time I have available. I am extremely social, with friends who (thankfully) are more often asking me to catch up than not. I have many many interests outside of work, such as my improvising comedy passion, my hobby business (kinesiology), music, theatre, shows amongst other "stuff" in general.
My family is currently undergoing a very stressful time. They are a huge priority for me at the moment, including getting around to seeing extended family members I don't get to see very often.
On top of all that, this gal needs to pay the bills, and she does so with a fairly demanding and brain-intensive job.
Not to mention, my health is a further priority right now, and I am about to start a 12 week body transformation challenge and training schedule in preparation for another triathlon, so early morning training sessions and dietary regimes means that I won't have the energy, time or stamina (as well as inclination) to do the sociable thing of late nights, alcohol-based catch ups and external dining experiences like I used to do...
All of this adds up to one thing. Time is a HUGE premium in my life.
Lately, I have felt like I am letting my friends down. I need to be quite clear that I do understand some feel "neglected". But I want to reassure everyone that I love you all (and am neglecting you all equally, if that's any consolation...)
I can't make any promises about things getting easier. Because I have done that before and felt like I have let people down even more when I couldn't keep that promise.
I need to put this out there loudly and strongly.
I am my own Number One priority right now.
It's not that I don't want to catch up with friends or make time for everyone, or that I am not concerned about people feeling left out of my life at the moment. It's just the way things need to be.
Please be aware that it's too easy for me to feel guilty for putting myself first, and it's something I am going to be more guarded against for the time being.
I love youse all.
xxx
oh mate, I am so with you on the time front as you know and I'd hate to think that anyone would make you guilty for making yourself a priority. You've got to do what you need to do to be completely happy babe and that is all that matters. Good luck with the coming weeks xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteHi Andrea, I just changed that sentence to "it's too easy for me to feel guilty" because I don't really believe that anyone can MAKE me feel anything. I allow myself to feel guilty about this at the slightest suggestion that I haven't caught up with someone for a while... I am my own hardest critic in that regards.
ReplyDeleteThis post wasn't because anyone has deliberately said or done anything in particular, but because I have noticed a general "rumbling" within my friends about not having gotten Tash time for a while.
Thanks for commenting! xx